Got myself a medicine ball today! :P
And i should get a new cool writing book. Urghh, current one finishing! 

Guess what, the uncles/middle aged guys taught me how to use the forklift!! 
awesomeeee shit man! i was like, holyyy shitt, im driving this thing! hahaha!
The forklift can only be use when you have the license~ it's against the law and 
blah blah blah, hahaha! it is stated at the forklift itself. 
2nd last day of work tmr. I'll sure miss the workers there! they are so friendly! 
Every time the middle aged guys disturb us, i'll be the first one laughing! 

Ahhh~ life's been good. 

Remember when you said, "i'll prolly take a long time to be in another relationship~"
I just had a dream yesterday. You'll be in a relationship this year but idk when. hahaha!
That's long enough, HAHAHA! flack off. I just hope there won't be any downfall when you're 
in r/s~ Being with the ideal guy :) godddd, it's just a dream anw~ 

i"ll just say some stuff which i wrote in my book here.

It's not a perfect r/s when one of them keep show the happy side to the partner
and never the sad/angry. etc ~ 
It's perfect when all this are together even before they are in a r/s.
If before a r/s begin and all the couple know is happiness. 
It won't go far because you'll develop feelings that is unexpected overtime.
And that unexpected feelings will lead to a new personality that one of them can't accept
how the person changes. Therefore, that lead to a war and a disastrous ending. 
By war means they'll keep saying you have change and stuff but actually its not really change.
Its the person fault for not knowing more about the feelings that might develop.

I don't know if this sound logical but my point lies along those lines :) 

I wonder why my mind never want to stop thinking. Seriously! 
Almost everything! I will just start thinking about the positive and negative side 
to a person problem. The possibility of something happen. Maybe i should learn a bit of 
psychology stuff. JOKE, hahahaahah! But yeah, i appreciate with this 
insane mind of mine because without it, i would prolly just do some stupid stuff without thinking.

Ohh ya, the title is related to Steve jobs. Just sentence that i like to describe him as :) 

Happy Birthday Nurl!! 
Plan failed actually. LOL!
Me and cousin was walking in a fast pace around ION! 
Mainly because we reach there late, hahaha!
Hope you like the present! 

I bought myself a top and bottom in topmen! 
The item look like what Louis wore! heeheh!
Bought some accessories too! From DIVA, LOL! nvm, who cares. hahaha!

Ohhh and i bought present for YT too! 
I really hope she likes it. 
And tmr is her "party" hahaha!
Most prolly not gonna overnight. 
Not close with any actually but since in 2011, i made friends with them,
i shall enjoy myself there? LOL! 

Happy 18th Birthday again! 
Sorry, i didn't had time to write a birthday card, LOL! 
Enjoy being 18! andd all the best with A levels this year! :D

This year pass way too fast. Even though how fast it is,
 there's a lot of things happen  ~ 

i don't really know what to rant about currently.
If im staying home, i'll post another entry :D 

New year's resolution for 2012. 
ummmmm, This shall be post in my next entry then. hahaha

ohh and i still don't have any plans RIGHT NOW!
wheree should i go/what should  i  do ~ 

Feeling all better now after therapy~ 

To soothe a broken heart, you just have to use temporary words. 
Like, we'll still be close like how we used to ; it's just a word .
After few weeks, goneee~ 
You don't even contact the person. 
That's what i learnt so far. 

By distancing yourself from a problem, it won't solve them. 
you are just postponing the matter. 
In a matter of fact, when you delay, it gets worse. 
ohhh why am i saying this. It's not even my problem.

On a bright note, i hope i get my pay this friday! whooop whoop! 

To someone who is still quite impt to me but not impt to you i guess(?) 
Enjoy your holiday and have a safe trip! :)

So, i had problem sleeping.
I just couldn't make myself fall asleep.

When i woke up, i could still feel the heavy heart. 
Broke into tears when i tried walking.
I was in squad position when i wanted to bathe. 
It feels so pain :( 
I even have the feeling to vomit.
i really hope im okay :(

Im still feeling like shit. 
I tried to be optimistic but somehow i just feel like shit. 
my heart feels soooo heavy. 
i hope i could meet you :'(

i was feeling down yesterday but you helped me change my mindset.
It feels so good.
but idk why, the feeling started to came back.
it hurts so much. i feel like killing myself. 
it hurts from within. 
omggg,i need a hug so bad. 
i wanna hug my mummy :'( 
but no one is at home. 
help me god :'(

Barri and Hq came to my house yesterday night, to give me a small surprise. 
It's mainly because of Christmas and also to thank me for helping them
in their relationship when it's rocky. :D 

It's funny when i helped them in their r/s but im the one who lose
my gf first -.- 
So, i talked to Hq about how im feeling and stuff.
She wanted me to get back with... 
I explained to her about us and she was shocked that im your first bf. 
hahaha! and she said how lucky am i to get her. 
sigh, i know i know :) 

im still feeling lifeless.
everything feels not worthy. 
i don't feel like eating/exercising/ going out.
practically everything! 
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :'( 

i just want to leave this place. 
The idea of migrating is too much, mainly because of me. 
If i didn't went for the .. and stuff, migrating won't be an issue. 
I just find here, nothing worthy 

"impossible logical optimistic valuable exciting beautiful appearance blessed youth."

sigh, i still do :'( 
im always yearning for you. 
This weak heart can nvr live without you :( 

Merry Christmas Everyone ~

i wanted to rant about lots of things on Friday night. 
but failed. 
I just feel upset this few days for being a jerk. 
not because of the old things. but this time it's new. 
i swear i won't do this again.
It'll just break people heart. not mine.
But it kills me. The thought of me acting that way is seriously unacceptable.

For the first time, i think doing a reflection was good  for myself. 
i  don't wanna brag further about this new matter here. 

It feels good once in awhile, people complimenting about the way you look.
But when they don't know how to differentiate the good and the best. That sucks! 
More like an insult. 

Just random thoughts ~